Camp NaNoWriMo (April 2016): Week One

It’s already a week into April, which also means that the first week of Camp NaNoWriMo is coming to an end. For those of you who don’t know, Camp NaNo is similar to the usual NaNoWriMo––except it takes place in April and July, and participants can set their own word goals and have a bit more freedom with the project they’re working on (that is, it doesn’t have to be a novel).

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As I’ve mentioned, I’m using the month of April to continue working on The Resurrectionists. It was my NaNo ’15 novel, which I hadn’t worked on since November. At first I was a little nervous about diving back into it, but so far I think things have been going pretty well.

My goal for the whole month is to add 15,000 words to what I already have (which will add up to a total of about 65,000). So, that’s 500 words per day! You can learn more about the story here, if you’re curious.

Week One Progress Report:

Current WC/CC: 53,605 words / 21 chapters

Progress This Week: 3,105 words / 2 chapters

How It’s Going:

Not bad! Jumping back into the story has not been as difficult as I expected it to be––maybe because I was still thinking about the story and planning it, even in the months I was focusing on other projects.

During November, I found it useful to try a combination of outlining and pantsing. So for this month, I’m trying the same thing: I outline a little, but I try not to plan more than a couple chapters ahead. I’ve found that this way, it doesn’t feel like I’m trying to force the story in any direction. I’m allowing myself to just explore it, and it’s much more fun and surprising that way. Not only that, but the flow of the story feels more natural to me. It’s like using stepping stones to get across a river; once I’ve jumped onto one stone, I figure out how I’m going to jump to the next one––rather than trying to leap across the whole river at once.

As for my word goal, I’ve found 500 words per day to be very doable. It doesn’t seem too overwhelming, but it’s enough to make some good progress every day. I haven’t written anything yet today, but I only have to write about 400 words to reach my daily goal, so I’m not worried about it.

An Excerpt From This Week:

At last, she had let the silence last for far too long, and she felt herself weakening under Elmira’s desperate gaze.

“I’m sorry,” she said quietly. “I have to tell you the truth.”

“Which is what, exactly?”

“Which is …” She took a deep breath, willing herself to say it. “It’s true, what he said. You were dead.”

At that, Elmira shrunk back as if she’d been slapped. “But––But I’m not. I didn’t––” Her breathing started to go ragged. One hand flew to her chest.

Oh, no. Alarmed, Alice lurched to her feet again. I shouldn’t have said it. Now I’ve killed her … “Elmira?”

“I can’t feel my heart. Or … I can, but something’s not right.”

Alice felt the mechanical clicking in her own chest, and she drew in a deep breath as she tried to find the words to explain it to Elmira. At this point, she’d nearly forgotten what a real heartbeat felt like. If she reached deep into her memories, she could faintly recall it––the organic, heavy thudding of a human heart. What it felt like to be alive.

“I know it feels strange at first,” Alice said. “It took me months to grow used to it. But you will, in time.”

Elmira kept her hand against her chest, her brow furrowed. “So you’re saying you’re … This happened to you, too?”

“Yes.” To prove it, Alice drew the collar of her dress down slightly to reveal the scar that ran through her chest. She didn’t like to look at it, but she’d seen it often enough in the mirror to know what it looked like. After a year of healing, it was still very visible, but not quite as ghastly as it had once looked. It had faded to a white, puckered trail that ran from the hollow of her throat all the way to her stomach. After her own initial operation, she had been alarmed at how quickly it healed––but Cyrus had reassured her that it was normal.

Slowly, Elmira lowered her hand from her chest, and leaned forward slightly to stare at Alice’s scar. Then she leaned back again, looking away shyly. “What––What happened to you? To both of us?”

At the question, Alice tried not to wince. She didn’t like to remember her life before. As strange as this new life was, it was worlds better than where she had once been.

“We died,” she said simply. “And Cyrus brought us back.”

Thus concludes week one of Camp NaNo! Thanks for joining me, and I will update again next week. 😀

How about you guys? Is anyone else doing Camp NaNo? If so, what are your projects about?

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NaNoWriMo: Week Four + WIPMarathon November 2015 Check-In

Here we are, folks––the final day of NaNoWriMo 2015.

And guess what? I WON! I WON, I WON, I WON!!! (Can you tell I’m excited?)

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Look at that beautiful graph! I’m so proud. As you can see, I did fall behind on some days, but for the most part I stayed pretty on-track. Compared to the past couple years, where I had to write like 5k+ on the last day, that’s pretty good!

Anyway, this post is my final NaNo ’15 update, as well as my November WIPMarathon check-in. Here we go!

Last WC/CC: 33,684 words / 14 chapters

Current WC/CC: 50,499 words / 20 chapters

Progress Since Last Week: 16,815 words / 6 chapters

Total Words Written in November: 50,499

WIP Issues This Month:  

  • Since this month was NaNoWriMo, it meant I was tackling an entire new novel from scratch. I hadn’t started something new in over a year, so it felt a little intimidating.
  • I didn’t do much planning for this NaNo, which was unusual for me. As someone who usually prefers to have a full outline, it was kinda scary to wing it some of the time. But I found a good process of switching between writing and outlining as I went, which worked out pretty well.
  • Since I only decided on an idea like two weeks before November, that didn’t leave much time to do background research––and since my novel is (kind of) historical fiction, that meant there were some gaps in my knowledge about the time period. But I just had to suck it up and not be a perfectionist. I can always go back and do the research later.
  • Considering I didn’t do much writing in the months before NaNo, it was quite a leap to go from writing practically nothing every day to writing 1,667 words a day. It felt overwhelming at first, but I got more used to it as the month went on!

What I learned this month in writing: 

  • I don’t absolutely need a full outline before I start something. In fact, I found it useful to not be tied to a detailed outline for this story, because it gave me more room to explore and experiment.
  • Yes, I can write 1,667 words a day, even on really busy days. I really have no excuses not to write every day.

What distracted me this month while writing: 

Not very much, actually! I was pretty focused all month, which was awesome. There were some days I didn’t get much writing done, but it was usually because I was spending time with friends or family. There were also times I got distracted by the internet, but that’s nothing new.

Goal for next month: 

Dare I say it? I’m gonna say it.

*Deep breath* I really, really want to finish my first draft of I Chose The Monster this month. “But Brigid,” you exclaim, “you’ve been saying that every month for like two years!” I know, I know. But I feel like NaNo has given me the drive I need to finish this draft. I only have a few chapters of it left and I just need to get it done.

As for The Resurrectionists (my NaNo novel) I am going to set it aside for a little while, but I will get back to it eventually! But it might be a couple months before I return to it. I have ICTM to finish/edit, and then I also still need to finish The Waters and the Wild. Gahhh, so much to do in 2016!

Last 200 Words: 

For now, enjoy some recent words from The Resurrectionists! I’ve had a lot of fun working on it this month.

“I suppose I should frame the question differently. It isn’t painful to breathe, is it? You don’t feel like there’s some kind of … crushing pressure on your chest?”

“N––No,” Elmira stammered, putting a hand over her chest. “But … my heart. It feels strange.”

“Strange how? Does it hurt?”

“No, not exactly. But it’s like––like it isn’t beating right. It feels like it’s … clicking.”

Alice became aware of the strange clicking sensations in her own false heart.

“That’s entirely normal,” Cyrus said dismissively. “It sounds to me like you’re recovering splendidly.”

“Recovering?” Elmira repeated. “From what, exactly?”

“From death,” Cyrus said.

“Cyrus!” Alice exclaimed, aghast at how casually he’d said it. “You can’t just––”

“What? She may as well know the truth now.” He looked back at Elmira. “I’m sorry if that sounded a bit callous, my dear. But unfortunately, it’s true.”

“Death?” Elmira repeated, her voice small with horror. “But I … You can’t be saying that I … No. No, no. I can’t be dead. I’m not dead.”

“Not anymore,” said Cyrus.

“Stop it.” Alice moved in front of Elmira as if she meant to protect her from physical harm. “All you’re doing is scaring her.”

How did your month go, my fellow NaNos? Did you win? Even if you didn’t, did you still write a lot and learn valuable lessons?

Thanks to those of you who have followed my NaNo craziness this month!

How To Catch Up On NaNoWriMo (even if you’re really, really, really behind)

So, I’ve won NaNoWriMo for the past seven years. Some years I’ve won in two weeks. Other years I’ve scrambled to write 10,000 words on November 30th to make the goal. Some years I liked what I wrote, and sometimes I hated it. But one way or another, I always manage to reach the word goal.

We’re in the last week of NaNoWriMo 2015––and I don’t know about all you crazy NaNo participants out there, but I’m a little behind. If you, like me, need some help catching up, here are a few tips that have helped me win in the past:

Work on an outline.

Notice I didn’t say “you have to outline your entire book!!!!!” because you don’t. If that’s what floats your boat, you can! But personally, I’m a big fan of outlining and writing simultaneously. That is, outline a few chapters, write those chapters, outline some more chapters, write those chapters … lather, rinse, repeat. I’ve found this to be a good way to plan without taking away the fun and spontaneity of writing a first draft.

Don’t think.

Seriously, don’t. You know that voice in your head that keeps telling you your writing sucks? Ignore it. Tell it to shut the heck up. First drafts are supposed to suck, so go as crazy with that first draft as you can. You can always fix typos, awkward sentences, and plot holes later.

Skip over what you don’t know.

I try not to skip over too much, but there are definitely many times when I just don’t know where/how to end a chapter. I’m getting bored and stuck and I just want to move on. So, guess what? I move on! If that chapter is holding you up and you’re more excited about the next part, skip to that part and start working. Remember, kids––it’s a first draft. You can fix those awkward holes in the story later on.

Use Write or Die.

Write or Die has saved my butt so many times. It’s gotten me through novels, essays, you name it. It’s a pretty simple website (there’s also a desktop version) where you set a word goal and a time limit. If you stop typing for too long, the screen turns red and it starts making noises at you.

If you prefer positive reinforcement, you can also try Written? Kitten!––a website where your writing is rewarded with cute pictures of kittens.

Do some word wars/sprints.

I enjoy doing word wars year-round, but there are especially a lot of people doing them online during NaNo. The rules are simple: 2 or more people write for the same amount of time, and whoever writes the most wins! And hey, even if you don’t win, you still wrote a bunch of words––woohoo!

There’s an ongoing, 24/7 sprint thread in the NaNoWriMo Facebook group. On Twitter, @NaNoWordSprints runs sprints pretty much all day, every day throughout November. There are also a lot of year-round word war & sprint hashtags on Twitter such as #wordsprint, #1k1hr, and #wordgrab.

If you don’t have Facebook/Twitter (or you’re trying to avoid them during NaNo!), you can always head over to the NaNoWriMo forums, where there is a whole section dedicated to Word Wars, Prompts, and Sprints.

Do a word crawl.

Maybe you don’t like competition and/or you’d like to work a bit at your own pace, but you still want a challenge. In that case, word crawls may work very well for you! Word crawls are a series of mini challenges (i.e. write 250 words, write for 10 minutes, or write 3% of your current word count). They often have some kind of a fun theme, and there are a lot of cool ones on the NaNo forums such as the Extreme Harry Potter Crawl. I hadn’t tried word crawls until this year, but I’ve been having a lot of fun with them and they’re really boosting my word count.

So, thus ends my advice about how to catch up on NaNo. Now I should probably go follow my own advice, because I am about 3,000 words behind schedule right now. 😉

For my fellow NaNos: How are you doing? And do you have any advice for people who are struggling to catch up?

Also, happy Thanksgiving everyone! Hopefully I will have time to write some words before I eat tons of food.

NaNoWriMo: Week Three

I can’t believe we’re already heading into the last week of NaNo already! I feel like I just started my novel, and yet it’s crazy to think how much it’s changed and how much progress I’ve already made since the beginning.

Current WC/CC: 33,684 words / 14 chapters

Progress Since Last Week: 14,341 words / 6 chapters

How It’s Going:

Wow, I did so much better this week than I did last week. That’s partly due to the fact that, on Wednesday, I wrote nearly 6k words in one day. It was crazy and a lot of work, but I finally got myself back on schedule.

I’ve gotten really into doing “word crawls,” which are series of challenges people post on the NaNoWriMo forums, and they usually have some kind of fun theme. Right now I’m working on the “Extreme Harry Potter Crawl” which has been very helpful to me so far!

Today I’m a little behind, and now it’s nearly 5 PM and I haven’t written anything yet, but I plan to change that very soon. Yesterday was a very busy day for me so I didn’t have enough time to reach the daily word goal. Hopefully tonight I can catch up.

As for the story it’s … happening. After introducing a million different characters and plot lines, I feel like things are starting to come together and I’ve nearly gotten into the central conflict and whatnot.

An Excerpt From This Week:

“This is a necessary strategy if we are to make the progress we need,” Cyrus said. “You may not believe me now, but I can tell you … I’ve been working for years studying anatomy, and I have made some miraculous recent discoveries. With your help, I could bring these discoveries to light. We could achieve something great, the two of us.”

Although Matthias was intrigued, another part of him argued that Cyrus was probably lying or insane––or both.

“Not to mention, I am willing to pay you handsomely,” the professor added.

“I don’t need the money.”

“Perhaps not. But surely, you must know someone who does.”

Cyrus reached into his pocket and pulled out a crumpled piece of parchment, which he pressed into Matthias’ hand.

“What is this?” Matthias asked.

“Some information I want you to have,” Cyrus said. “It’s a subject I’m interested in. A girl who was murdered the other night at Vauxhall.”

Matthias had heard some things about this murder. Now he glanced at the piece of paper and understood what the professor was hinting at. Written on it was an address of a graveyard, and a time.

“That’s where her funeral will be held,” Cyrus said casually. “If you decide to take my offer, I advise that you attend. Pretend to be a guest. Find out where she’s being buried. And that night …”

“Steal her body,” Matthias finished blankly. The parchment shook in his hand. “Professor, I can’t––”

“I’m only asking you to consider it. For me. For the future of humanity.”

And that’s a wrap on week three! How’s it going for you, all you fellow NaNo participants?

I know I promised a “how to catch up on NaNo” post and I still plan to write it! Hopefully it will be up by Tuesday or Wednesday. Also get ready for another Music Monday post tomorrow!

Hope you are all having a lovely weekend. ❤

Music Monday: 11/16/15 – NaNo Edition! (pt. 2)

I realize that last week, I completely forgot to do Music Monday. So this week, I will be posting 4 songs instead of the usual 2. To celebrate NaNoWriMo, this week I am specifically posting songs that are inspiring my NaNo novel.

If you would also like to participate in Music Monday:

• Every Monday, share 1-2 songs. It can be any genre, it can be something new or it can be an old favorite. Whatever you want!
• Share a music/lyric video of the song.
• Tell us some of your thoughts/feelings about the song, artist, and/or music video.
• Submit the link to your blog post at the bottom of Lauren’s post here (where it says “Add your link”).

My Music Choices of the Week:

Mt. Wolf – Life Size Ghosts

This song always gives me chills! It’s so atmospheric and mysterious. Definitely inspiring.

Woodkid – The Other Side

If you’re a writer and have never listened to Woodkid, do yourself a favor and go listen to his album The Golden Age––holy crap, it’s amazing. All his lyrics have an intriguing, narrative quality to them, and there’s a lot of epic drums and strings. He also has a very unusual, distinct voice that I really love.

Florence + The Machine – Seven Devils

I am total Florence-worshipping trash and honestly every single one of her songs inspires me. But “Seven Devils” has always been one of my favorites––what a delightfully creepy song. And as always, Florence Welch’s voice is pure magic.

Alex Winston – Guts

I love Alex Winston and I wish she was more well-known! She has a very interesting voice––kind of reminds me of Joanna Newsom. Her songs are catchy but they also have a powerful, dark side to them. “Guts” is my favorite of hers. Wish there was a cool music video to go with it!

Thanks for listening! Hope you enjoyed my music choices, and be back next week for more NaNo-themed songs. 🙂

Later this week, I hope to write a post about how to catch up on NaNo. 😉 See ya later and happy Monday!

NaNoWriMo 2015: Week Two

Ah, the dreaded Week Two––when the shiny new story starts to lose its shininess, when you start to worry that your ideas are stupid and your writing is terrible, when you start slipping behind and losing all hope … Haha. Ha. *Cries*

Current WC/CC: 19,343 words / 8 chapters

Progress Since Last Week: 8,344 words / 2 chapters

How It’s Going: 

Uhhh well I’m supposed to be at 25k words since today is the halfway point, so I am more than 5k words behind. *Screams* I’ve been slacking off quite a lot this week, and even though I was busy doing some things, I had enough free time that I don’t really have a good excuse. I think I got over-confident the first week because I was staying on schedule pretty well, and now I’m … not. But I’m really hoping I can catch up today or tomorrow. I just need to set my mind to it.

Besides being behind in my word count, though, things are going pretty well. My story is not perfect, of course, but I’ve been exploring even more subplots and introducing new characters this week and it’s been fun so far. I’m a little nervous about the next two weeks because I don’t have much of an outline to work with, so I might need to plan a bit more. Buuuut I’ll figure it out. Hopefully.

An Excerpt From This Week: 

The man kept a hand perched on the bookshelf, and looked up with an expression of mild irritation. “This is not the first grave robbery to be reported this week. I’d be surprised if it was even the first one reported today.”

Now Lena felt like she was about to lose her temper as her father had, but she tried to keep her voice civil. “What do you mean?”

The man sighed, returning to his chair and sitting down. “You mean you haven’t heard? Body-snatching has become a bit of a sport, lately.” He said it so lightly, Lena wondered if it was a joke. But since he didn’t laugh or otherwise indicate he was lying, she took that to mean he was being serious.

When father and daughter merely stared at him in shock, the man went on. “There have been reports of grave robberies all over the city lately.” He leaned forward, pressing his fingers into a temple. “These groups of men calling themselves ‘resurrectionists’ are digging up bodies and giving them to medical schools.”

Lena frowned. “Resurrectionists?” she repeated.

The man smirked. “Rather self-righteous, isn’t it?”

And that’s all for today, folks! Hopefully I can catch up within the next few days, and I hope weeks three and four will go more smoothly than this one. (Haha, yeah right.)

Also, I realize I totally forgot about Music Monday last week, but I will be sure to do one tomorrow. 🙂

My fellow NaNo-ers: How’s it going?

NaNoWriMo 2015: Week One

I promised to post updates about how NaNo was going, so here I am! I can’t believe it’s only been a single week … I already feel like it’s been ages.

Current WC/CC: 10,999 words / 6 chapters

How It’s Going:

The word goal for today (if I want to stay on the 1667-a-day track) is 13,333. So as you can see, I’m a little over 2k behind. I managed to stay totally on schedule the first few days, but for the past couple days I’ve been letting myself slip behind a little. I know I can catch up, though, and I’m going to try really hard not to fall behind this week.

My main issue is that I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM DOING. Like, really. I had the first couple chapters planned out, but otherwise I’m pretty much making this up as I go. Around day 4 or 5 I started to feel stuck because I’d already reached the end of what I’d planned. … But I just sat down with my outline, planned a few more chapters, and kept going.

I’m also trying as hard as I can not to be a perfectionist. Normally I’m a little nervous about skipping around on the timeline, leaving scenes incomplete, etc. But right now, I need to just get the story out. If I don’t know how to end a scene, I just leave it where it is and move on to something else. If I’m not sure where one storyline is going, I jump to another one and explore it some more.

A beneficial aspect of my story is that there are a lot of characters and subplots, so when I’m bored/stuck with one, I can move on to another. I’m finding it really fun to explore all the different storylines and to just go crazy with it and see where it takes me. It will certainly need a ton of reworking and polishing when it comes to editing, but I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it. It’s the first draft, and it’s supposed to be a mess. That’s what I have to keep telling myself.

An Excerpt From This Week:

“I’ve thought about it, from time to time,” Walker went on pensively, as if he hadn’t heard anything. He shook the water droplets from his long, bony fingers, then stood up straight with his hands clasped behind his back as he turned to face Matthias again. “It can be difficult to separate the head from the heart, so to speak.”

He watched Matthias over the rim of his glasses as if he anticipated a response.

Matthias stood still, trying to make sense of what the professor had said. “I’m afraid I don’t know what you mean,” he admitted after a short pause.

At that, Cyrus Walker chuckled, and Matthias supplied a nervous smile in answer––he didn’t know what was so funny.

“I suppose that was a confusing choice of words, especially considering my profession,” Walker said. He brushed past Matthias and began to pace around the dissection table once more, watching his feet as he walked. “I’m speaking metaphorically, of course. What I’m saying is, when dissecting a human body, I’m often torn between two halves of myself. There’s the one part—my head—that merely sees the body before me as an inanimate object, a non-living and non-breathing thing.

“But then there’s the other part of me—the heart …” And there he paused for a moment and glanced at the heart that was still lying on the table. “And that part of me,” he continued, “is the part that cringes away, that tells me what I’m doing is wrong somehow. This is a human being, it insists. Someone who was once alive. Someone who once lived, breathed, loved, and hated. Felt pain. Felt joy. It’s all very strange, isn’t it?”

Over all, I’m happy with how things are going so far and I’m looking forward to the next ~3 weeks. It’s going to be a crazy ride with a lot of grave robbery, human dissections, and demonic possession. YAY!

To the rest of you doing NaNo: How’s it going? What are you writing about? I want to hear about your NaNo projects! 🙂

Music Monday: 11/2/15 – NaNo Edition! (pt. 1)

Welcome back to Music Monday! I thought that since it’s November, my Music Mondays this month will be NaNo-themed––that is, these are some of the songs that have inspired my NaNo novel. Since my novel is mostly about grave robbery and demons, these songs are uh … pretty dark. Yaaaay!

If you’d also like to participate in Music Monday this week, here are the rules:

• Every Monday, share 1-2 songs. It can be any genre, it can be something new or it can be an old favorite. Whatever you want!
• Share a music/lyric video of the song.
• Tell us some of your thoughts/feelings about the song, artist, and/or music video.
• Submit the link to your blog post at the bottom of Lauren’s post here (where it says “Add your link”).

My Music Choices of the Week: 

MS MR – Bones

Pretty much all of MS MR’s album Secondhand Rapture is a huge inspiration to my writing. It’s dark, it’s creepy, it’s epic … I can never get enough of it. “Bones” is one of my absolute favorite tracks on the album (and one of my favorite songs in general). I love the lyrics, I love the power of Lizzy Plapinger’s voice, I love how haunting the song is. It’s the perfect song to go with my NaNo!

Agnes Obel – The Curse

Another really cool and haunting song. The strings are epic, and over all it has a really intense atmosphere and an intriguing narrative to it. I love it and it’s a great song to write to.

Join me next Monday for more NaNo-themed songs! And make sure to check out Lauren’s post and link up for more Music Monday posts!

WIPMarathon: October 2015 Check-In + NaNoWriMo!

Happy Halloween, everyone! I hope you’ve all had a spectacularly spooky day. I got to hang out with some of my friends from high school––we played Zoombinis and carved a pumpkin and it was a lot of fun. At the moment I am alone at home (on “handing out candy” duty) and I just finished watching the “Freaks and Geeks” Halloween episode, which I traditionally watch every year.

The best ❤

Anyway, on to the first order of business, which is my October check-in for WIPMarathon.

UMMMM … I really did not write much this month. My two (lame) excuses are 1) I was in the middle of writing a very difficult part of the book and it’s been too emotionally draining, 2) I got caught up in planning for NaNoWriMo and that kind of consumed a lot of my time. I am a bit frustrated since I was really hoping to finish this draft of I Chose The Monster before NaNo, but I guess it can wait until after November. *sigh*

Last WC/CC: 126,838 words / 45 chapters

Current WC/CC: 128,804 words / 46 chapters

WIP Issues This Month:

  • Mostly procrastination/laziness
  • I was distracted by planning for NaNo.
  • I’m trying to get through a really sad and dramatic chapter that’s been giving me a lot of trouble––and honestly that’s part of what prevented me from writing all month (besides just being lazy).

What I learned this month in writing:

It’s hard to say since I didn’t get much writing done at all. 😛 But ummmm … I guess I’ve learned that it can be very difficult to emotionally detach myself from the story/characters, but sometimes I just need to rip off the band-aid.

What distracted me this month while writing:

As I’ve mentioned a couple times: planning for NaNoWriMo! I got so caught up in researching, outlining, etc. that I just kind of set ICTM aside. I started to feel much more attracted to a new, shiny story than to an old one I’ve been working on for ages. 😛 But I’m sure I’ll be sick of the “shiny new story” by the end of November and then I can go back to ICTM! Yay!

Goal for next month:

To win NaNo! This is my tenth year participating––I can’t believe it. And I’m hoping to keep up my winning streak because I’ve won the past seven NaNos. Let’s make this number eight!!!

Last 200 Words:

Ohhhh boy. As I’ve mentioned, I’m in the middle of quite a dramatic part right now so uh, the emotions are running a bit high in this excerpt. Also WARNING: some strong language. 😛

“Fuck you,” I say. It comes out louder and fiercer than I thought it would, and Juliet winces as if I physically hurt her. I get shakily to my feet. “Fuck … you.” This time it comes out weak, broken—strangled by the sobs that are fighting their way up into my chest.

Juliet shakes her head. “Nina––”

She takes a step forward, but I step away from her. I clutch at my wrist, where it’s still throbbing. “You’re such a bitch, you know that?”

As soon as I’ve said it, I want to take it back. I see the look on Juliet’s face and I know I’ve hurt her. But at the same time, some sick part of me is glad. I need her to feel hurt, to show any kind of emotion at all.

“It’s always about you,” I force myself to continue––even though the tears are streaming freely down my face now, even though my voice trembles, even as the first sob racks its way through me. “You don’t give a damn about anyone but yourself. Even now. I––I can’t believe you.”

My voice finally breaks on the words. I’m losing control. Coming apart. Everything is growing hazy and unreal and I just want it to stop.

…. So much fun, I know!!!

Ah-hem well uh. Anyway. Time for the second thing on my agenda:

NaNoWriMo!!!!!!!!!!!

I’ll keep this brief because this post is already getting really long. But anyway, the working title of my NaNo is The Resurrectionists. 

resurrectionists

~spooky~

It’s based on real-life grave robbery in 18th century London, but it has a bit of a supernatural twist to it. 😉 I guess I’ll just leave it at that partly because I don’t really know what I’m doing!!!! but there is a bit more info about it here if you’re curious. (Also, feel free to add me as a NaNo buddy if you are also participating!)

I will try to do a weekly update for NaNo so I can tell you guys more about the story as I start making progress. Also I’m hoping to do a special NaNo edition of Music Monday this week. So, stay tuned!

Hope you’re all having a fun and safe Halloween. Don’t eat too much candy. 😉 …. Just kidding, eat lots and lots of candy.

How about you guys? Are you also doing NaNo? If so, what are you writing about?